October 13, 2013: Last night I was waiting her alone. I try to call her many times but no answer. I'm
so sad but still keep waiting because she told me she would talk with me after
one hour rest. Time was moving. I tried to call her but no answer and drop her
some message on yahoo but still no respond. I feel hopeless. She might still
unhappy with me, i though.
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| Sorrow Day |
I
was waiting and thinking of her alone until fall in sleep at around 23h15. My
feeling was so lonely and sad. It likes I lost a value thing in my life. I feel
so far from her. I miss her so much. I understand that i made her feel not comfortable yesterday because I didn't call her back as promise when i arrived
at office at 12h30. While, I also told her that because there was no suitable
time for us to talk since I don’t my colleague to hear what I talk with her. I
know it's a part of my mistake. I should let her know in advance but I didn't.
After
sleeping about 5 hours, I woke up at 05h00. I immediately check one of my
phones whether there are some miscalls from her. I feel hopeless when see
nothing in my phone. I immediately checked another phone and saw her email and
message on yahoo. I read her message and a story she sent me via email. I
realize that she didn't answer my phone because she was already at work for OT.
I feel pity her so much because she has no time to rest even on sat. She was
thinking about me at work alone. She must feel so hard to live in the world
alone at that time.
I
finished reading, I didn't continue my sleeping. I started writing a story to
her back. Because i want her to realize how much I love her. What i was
thinking about her. How much i pity her. And say sorry baby that i kept you
alone last night. I miss you. I love you so much. You are my life!