Moon Festival, September 30, 2012: Under a full round
moon, I’m sitting in front of computer and start typing a love story of mind
which is magically happened while we are living in different world. We both
havenever ever though this love should be created since we were just friend
while we studied in the University.
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| Our Love Story: Hearts and Birds |
In 2004, I graduated High School and continued my bachelor
degree in the University of Cambodia. As a provincial guy who just came to
Phnom Penh, I haven’t known anybody yet. People I’ve known, they are just
normal classmates. One year later, I started having more friends at the
university while I’ve known her too. At that time, we were just a normal friend,
and we used to study at the same class for a term. I remember that we didn’t
even talk to each other a lot at that time but she was really friendly to
classmates. Since she is a clever, kind and friendly girl, she got a job at an
organization and often flied to abroad for meeting and joining other seminars.
So we hadn’t met each other often but our connection was not 100% lost since
we’ve given contact number and yahoo address to each other. From year to year,
we still keep connecting via yahoo chat—but not often—and one day we were
talking about family. She told me about a guy in her mind, and I asked her who
is he? Can you tell me? She just responded back I’m sorry I can’t tell you now.
So then, I just stop asking her more about him while she asked me about my
girlfriend and I—when do you plan to get married? She asked. I said we are
planning to get marry soon. After that we just kept chatting about other
things.
Few years later, our friendship was a bit closer and I don’t
know why. Maybe I was chatting with her
about the illness of my mum—I remember that it was in the 3rd
quarter of 2010. As a kind and friendly girl, she asked me whether she can
visit my mum. I responded her in smiling face YES sure you can. And, yes, she
visited my mum. I really appreciated her kindness at that time because I though
that why should be who came to visit my mum since we are just a normal friend.
There should be other close friends of mind who come to visit her.
In 2011, in the launch time at my old working place my phone
rang. That was her who called me to join a farewell party to USA. I was glad to
answer her phone and said YES I will join. After her farewell party, we still
have few times to play table tennis together. I went to pick her at house, and
we were really happy while playing. However, both of us never hang out together
besides playing table tennis. With her cool action, her laugh and the smiling
face of hers, I talked to myself in my mind that it would be great if she was
my girlfriend. Maybe it was the feeling of love on her but I told myself that
NO, Sopheara, you already have girlfriend so you can’t think on her more than a
friend. My silly feeling was stopped. Meanwhile, on the way back home I have
noticed that she talked something in her heart to me. She said that why a
person whom we feel that he/she is fit with us is not available? And why people
whom we don’t like always come to us and ask for marriage? I slowly responded her
YES I totally agreed. I said add that it hard to find a person who absolutely
fit with us. Few minutes later, I left her home after dropping her at house.
Sad day was come. It’s time for her to leave for USA. I went
to congratulate her last day in Cambodia at the airport. I started feeling miss
her. I called her, I drop her massages in her facebook inbox, and sometime I
felt sad when I was waiting her respond for long time. I had a look on my
facebook inbox every day and was glad when I saw the notification in my inbox
because I think that should be hers. But I was upset because that was not hers.
Even she hasn’t responded my message some time, I still keep dropping in her
inbox and at the last sentences I always wrote “I miss you dear and hope to
meet you soon”. The feeling of feeling of missing her was getting big from day
to day but I asked myself back why I should miss her because I already have
girlfriend. Then that feeling was calm.
One day she called me. I was so glad to talk with her. She
still kept asking how my marriage plan is. I responded to her with a normal
feeling that we already broke. She felt sad to hear my story. Later on, I was
told that she got backache and had a sprained ankle. After hearing, I felt pity
and I really want to look after her. I remember that it’s the time we’ve shared
our own feeling and I started realizing that a man in her mind for several year
was me. We both were so happy when everything was opened and know that our
feeling was the same but just can’t say it out because I had girlfriend.
Because she is a smart high educated girl, she hasn’t said
YES to me even both of us already opened the feeling. She asked me many
questions and also assigned me to do some jobs before saying YES. The first
assignment is to fold money into 365 hearts and 365 birds. I confidently answer
YES I can do it with hope and smiling face without asking the reason why should
I fold even I have never done it before. Because of loving her, I immediately
searched google and youtube to find the way of folding.
The feeling of love on her is getting BIG from day to day
when I start folding hearts. I never feel tired or boring of folding them. The
only thing I need is to focus on my folding to get YES answer from her. At the
same that I fold hearts, I think of her a lot because we are so far from each
other. I miss her. I want her to stay near by me. I want to hold her before sleeping.
I want to kiss her before sleeping and after get up. I want to say I love you
every night before we say good night. I want to help her cooking. I want to
hold her hand and walk on the beach. I want her to sleep on my shoulder. I want to assist her when she gets
difficulties. I want to hear her voice every day. I want to look after her by
myself. I want to build a sweet family with her. I want to be a good husband
for her. I want to be a good daddy for my kids. I want to be a good sample of
young couple like us. I want to do a lot of things for her. Sometime, I’m
afraid that I make her sad. I’m afraid that she’ll stop talking with me if I
make her unhappy. Every time when she’s sad, I’m sad. She’s happy, I’m happy. She
smile, I smile.
She is the only girl who changes my life, and I really need
her to fill in my blank heart. I’m really lucky to have her. She understands me
well. She always encourages and supports me when I’m down. We have a lot of
common things. I love her so much. She is my life!